Bipolar Disorder, the Silent Killer | Mental Health

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Bipolar Disorder, Living with the Silent Killer
Bipolar Disorder kills thousands of people every year. Bipolar often goes undetected and people are left to think that they are "losers", "worthless", "hopeless", "failures", and "unloved". These feelings often go to the extreme and people commit suicide because they see no way out and they "just don't want to feel the pain any longer". On the other hand some people are diagnosed incorrectly and it can take years and much hardship to get proper help. You also have people who are diagnosed correctly but still struggle for years to get the right medication. There is not a "fix all" drug on the market. Medication often becomes a science experiment or a form of art. Sometimes many drugs are tried unsuccessfully before individuals can find a combination of drugs that work. It is a tedious process that can take an individual on a rollercoaster ride of hell. The fortunate people find the right drug combination and go about a some what "normal" life. Please read the journal entry that Brad made one day in reference to his personal struggles with the disease of Bipolar Disorder. Brad has substituted more "gentle" words for the actual words that were used in several places so that you can feel the pain, hurt, and sorrow with out being turned off by the language. "Dear Bipolar, You are really a jerk, do you know that? I hate you. It does not seem fair that you are in my life. I did not ask for you and I don't want you. You are no good for me; you cause me hardship and suffering. You have really messed up my family life in so many ways and helped cause me to have very little self esteem. Of course my parents did not help that process either. Why do you taunt me with the manic stages when you know that all they are going to do is fart me up the next day? I hate how you drag me down for no apparent reason and then limit me to sleeping for 24 hours straight. I do not like the fact that you cause me to be unproductive and lower my self esteem. You make me feel like a piece of crap. I buy into all the bologna that you run through my head. You cause me great pain by making me a worse parent than I know I could be if I didn't have you in my life. You encourage me to get angry at my family and be very short with them. You make me take my bad stuff out on them and it is hurting them in ways that I thought I would never ever repeat because I know that they are very destructive to the people around me. You cause me to need more sleep than the average person (8-9 hours per night) and I can't drastically alter my sleeping schedule without possible negative side effects. You cause me to need more "down time" than most people need. I can't be as productive as a "normal" person because you are present in my life. I am less motivated than I would like to be. I get less done than other people do. You give me limitations and restraints that other people don't have. I have less focus and concentration than most. It is harder to turn off the negative tapes in my head. I will probably need to take medications for the rest of my life." Bipolar Disorder will cause hardship in people's lives until it is recognized and dealt with. There is hope and help, and with the proper diagnosis people can turn their lives around and learn to love themselves, the people around them and the world they live in.

About the Author

Bipolar Disorder caused a ton of hardship and hurt in Brad Gianninis' life before he was properly diagnosed and found a combination of medications that has worked relatively well bipolar disorder medication. Currently Brad is building a very successful internet business that you can learn more about at depression here.

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